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Why This Age?

  • Oct. 3rd, 2008 at 12:34 AM

Title: Why this age?
Author: seraph05
Rating: PG
Fandom: Fall Out Boy
Warnings: mindscrew? Oh and it’s pretty short
Pairing: Patrick/Pete
Disclaimer: This most definitely hasn’t happened. I don’t own them. Never have. Never will.
Summary: The left corner of his lips crooked upward slightly, as if hearing Patrick’s thoughts, before opening to let the question escape. The voice was a young Chicago pulse, smooth and running with music but it missed the mark in spirit.

“Why did you choose this age?”



Light rested softly on his black crown sending flecks of mahogany shooting out at all directions until it reached his eyes. They pinned Patrick to the spot with a gaze that promised to soothe in good time, though as it stood he couldn’t see how they would keep their word. His hands that were clasped gently and uncharacteristically in his lap, shifted to avoid the leg that hooked casually over the opposite one. Patrick raised an eyebrow. The jeans were right at least.

The left corner of his lips crooked upward slightly, as if hearing Patrick’s thoughts, before opening to let the question escape. The voice was a young Chicago pulse, smooth and running with music but it missed the mark in spirit.

“Why did you choose this age?”

Patrick blinked, head tipping to dip for the answer. When he came here this was how he arrived. It was like waking up and getting out of bed. It was like catching himself in a mirror by chance, but he supposed that somehow he had ended up appearing this way for a reason. His mind cast out and around, looking under memories and behind dates and times. It was not in the moments that marked his life that he found what he was searching for. Falling asleep in buses while friends drove over lines on maps. Waking up fearfully from nightmares of loneliness. Standing in the sun above stages and breathing the electric air. Shifting seconds aside to find a perfect one in the middle of the night. He met the waiting eyes again.

“Why does everyone choose this age, Pete?”

A quirk tugged his lips amusedly but his regard was open; he knew Patrick wasn’t finished.

“I’m glad I’m entertaining you,” Patrick shot like a knee jerk reaction and he caught it with the same ease of character. His reply however, was once again lacking.

“Well I’ve got to have a sense of humour about these things, don’t I?”

Patrick felt a fleeting stab.

“I guess so.”

He noted Patrick’s disappointment with a shrug, remaining silent. Patrick took this as a cue to gather himself and lay the pieces out in order. How long it took Patrick wasn’t sure, but he could see he wasn’t fazed. Hours could have passed and he would have sat exactly as he was now, ever curious over Patrick’s mind. Finally Patrick spoke.

“This was beautiful,” he said, staring at his own hands as an anchor for the thoughts “This age was beautiful. Not the way I looked, not the things I had, I mean they were nice…but it was the places I saw. The moments I shared, what I gave, what we fought for, who we loved. William would have called them the fast times but to me, they didn’t come and go in a mad thick blur. To me, they were clear and bright like a summer morning. It was like they broke off and kept going without me. Or maybe I walked away from them. Either way it makes sense that I would find them again now.”

He nodded and Patrick could see him turning the explanation over and around.

“Maybe this was the age of your heart,” he suggested, “Some hearts are born to be young and impractical, some are wise and strong. Your heart was always this age.”

“How do you know that for sure?” Patrick asked.

“Because I was always your age. I searched for my age till I met you then I bent it to yours,” he replied and Patrick caught a glimpse of the full image, heart and soul. Patrick found a sad kind of happy in this sight and ushered a tear to the side.

“Can I ask you a question?” Patrick’s tones laced into his friends lingering words, still hanging in the air, fulfilling a promise.

“Shoot.”

“Why did you choose him?”

Pete smiled.

“I didn’t. You did.”

A/N: I wasn't trying to offend anyone with this fic, it's just a story. I hope people get the meaning behind it and what it's about though.

Comments

phonetur_k wrote:
Oct. 2nd, 2008 09:30 pm (UTC)
It's beautiful and a little sad... but it's still not clicking.

I think I know what it means, but I don't know what it means.

Could you maybe, tell me? I feel sort of stupid.
orangesoda_love wrote:
Oct. 3rd, 2008 01:20 am (UTC)
i think i get it. and i don't know why but i'm in...tears right now. really the only thing that i can say is that..wow,this was very deep.

ps-whatever happened to those pornorefic pxp one shots that you were supposed to make off of Of Vampires and Rockstars?

*iz waiting*

i'm still crying :( but the story was really deep and it made a point. i also don't see how it could offend anyone...but it was excellent none the less :D
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 3rd, 2008 02:38 am (UTC)
thank you and i'm working of the OVAR fic as we speak. It's called Case Report 135. I'll try to finish it tomorrow if i get time. It's meant to be a sad fic i'm sorry i bummed you out though *huggles* it's not often i do fics this unapologetically sad. i generally like to end on a high note or instill some kind of hope into the characters which is weird cause it's not like i was sad or upset when i wrote it, just pondering things. the next one will be happy.
cloudsofsmoke wrote:
Oct. 5th, 2008 12:14 am (UTC)
i don't get it. at all. i really wish i got it.
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 5th, 2008 12:07 pm (UTC)
*takes deep breath* The fic is pretty much about Patrick dying. The concept was 'maybe when you die and you go to the place after and you appear physically to be a certain age, perhaps the age when you where happiest' but i always felt that people seem to be certain 'ages' no matter how old they get (my parents will be big kids forever but my year 9 science teacher was always an adult sort of thing).

So Patrick (has a happy life, grows old) dies and he goes to an 'after life' waiting room thing. There to meet him is god or a messenger in the form of pete to help patrick kind of ease into the transition between life and death by talking to him about what age he looks. Pete has already died and is waiting for patrick in the proper after life.

For the whole fic patrick can tell it's just a messenger in the form of pete (that's why patrick calls him "Him" for the whole fic exept the second last line, this is also kind of my way of saying he's not exepting the fact that he's dead, he's unhappy about it) but when the messenger relays the feelings the messenger knew pete had when he was alive patrick sees pete in the messenger. Patrick cries when the messenger feels like pete as well as looking like him because it's so good to see pete again but it's bittersweet because he knows inside it's not really pete.In some ways it's kinda happy at the end cause patrick's starting to exept it so he'll see his love ones soon.

do you get it or did i just confuse you more? it's hard to get an idea across sometimes especially one like this when i'm trying not to offend anyone with the whole religion thing.

kinda deep for a fanfic. i was going to write it as a non-fanfic but it's always easier to write a fanfic than an orginal fic
cloudsofsmoke wrote:
Oct. 10th, 2008 05:42 am (UTC)
OMG.
OMG.
I have no idea what to say.
No, I get it now. That's amazing. TY so much for explaining it to me, it makes sense now. Also, I spent so long reading it again with your explanation that it is six forty in the morning (really) and I have to get up for work in one hour. I don't. Even, care. It isn't that clear, but it doesn't have to be for others to get it. Maybe I'm just dense :)
...
OMFG
...
wow.
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 24th, 2008 12:18 pm (UTC)
No problem, i really wanted you to understand. geez! sorry for keeping you up so long that morning!!! im really happy you understood it in the end and so relieved you weren't offended. You just can never tell how people will react when religion is involved and i don't want to hurt anyones feels or diss anyones beliefs. I'm glad you enjoyed it and i'm so sorry it took me so long to reply. thanks again love S
cloudsofsmoke wrote:
Oct. 10th, 2008 05:43 am (UTC)
Oh, and I'm Christian. And no-ho offence from me, no sir.
neko_newee wrote:
Oct. 5th, 2008 09:40 am (UTC)
I--I'm going to read this again xD

...still don't get it x___x are 14-y/os supposed to get this? If not it means I'm not stupid xDD

I sort of get what they were talking about, but I don't get the *does weird hand gestures* situation? am I right? agh. and I don't know who the 'him' is at the end. Is it William...uhh...aaaaagh xD

I demand an explanation! Let's start a rally! LOL xD
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 5th, 2008 11:57 am (UTC)
well i don't blame you for not getting it. it is extremely vague and it's a pretty deep concept as well. "Him" is not william but it is a fair guess hee hee

The fic is pretty much about Patrick dying. The concept was 'maybe when you die and you go to the place after and you appear physically to be a certain age, perhaps the age when you where happiest' but i always felt that people seem to be certain 'ages' no matter how old they get (my parents will be big kids forever but my year 9 science teacher was always an adult sort of thing).

So Patrick (has a happy life, grows old) dies and he goes to an 'after life' waiting room thing. There to meet him is god or a messenger in the form of pete to help patrick kind of ease into the transition between life and death by talking to him about what age he looks. Pete has already died and is waiting for patrick in the proper after life.

For the whole fic patrick can tell it's just a messenger in the form of pete (that's why patrick calls him "Him" for the whole fic exept the second last line, this is also kind of my way of saying he's not exepting the fact that he's dead, he's unhappy about it) but when the messenger relays the feelings the messenger knew pete had when he was alive patrick sees pete in the messenger. Patrick cries when the messenger feels like pete as well as looking like him because it's so good to see pete again but it's bittersweet because he knows inside it's not really pete.In some ways it's kinda happy at the end cause patrick's starting to exept it so he'll see his love ones soon.

do you get it or did i just confuse you more? it's hard to get an idea across sometimes especially one like this when i'm trying not to offend anyone with the whole religion thing.

neko_newee wrote:
Oct. 5th, 2008 10:51 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I know, I'm Catholic, but it's not that bad xD I think I get it... *reads again* oh yeah *tear* last two lines...just...so bittersweet >.
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 8th, 2008 06:33 am (UTC)
oh good you're not offended and you get it ^_^ *is relieved* *hugs* thank you for reading
(no subject) - oil_on_asphalt - Oct. 7th, 2008 09:36 pm (UTC)
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 8th, 2008 06:30 am (UTC)
Thank you so much *hugs*
infamousxaffair wrote:
Oct. 18th, 2008 10:20 pm (UTC)
Okay, I know I'm really late on this, but I get it (of course, only after you explained it) and I can't exactly put it into words how I can compliment this. I want to give this the highest compliment because the symbolism behind it is just of epic magnitude and really? I just got teary-eyed in the happiest way at the end.

By the way, I hope this makes sense. xD


*mmrs*
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 24th, 2008 12:00 pm (UTC)
and i'm really late on the reply so we're even XD This was indeed a heavy one for the symbolism and pretty deep for a fanfic but i strive for complexity and high quality even in fanfics if i have the right idea to work with. I'm glad you could understand it in the end and i understood your comment and i'm really grateful for it. Thank you, luv S
thinker909 wrote:
Oct. 23rd, 2008 03:11 pm (UTC)
I think I love you.
seraph05 wrote:
Oct. 24th, 2008 11:57 am (UTC)
*grins* I think i'm cool with that XD

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